Pinchanok's life

Thursday, August 19, 2010

Hello people, I have already moved to:
http://goshiampartydrunk.tumblr.com/

Well, I don't really like to use blogger anymore. Haha. Well, if you want to catch up with me, you can go there. (:

Everyday, huh?

What's the point of going through everyday without him?

♥ 7:41 AM

Monday, May 10, 2010

It's been so long since I last came here. Cause I've already moved to livejournal and tumblr. But, once in a very long while, I may come back here to do something about this page of mine. (:
Now, my life is damn complicated. Idk why, but yes, damn complicated. Hoping it'll be less complicated as time goes by.
Goodbye, see you soon.

♥ 7:57 AM

Friday, March 5, 2010

Seems like I miss you very much.

Thought of you everyday, everynight, every mintue.

Wonder why I would miss you this much.

But seems like I can't stop missing and loving you,

even when I want to hate you to death.

I can quit anything else, but I can't seem to quit loving you.

♥ 9:50 PM

Monday, January 11, 2010

I think I'm not really gonna use blogger anymore. Just made 'livejournal' so I think I'll be going there more often, (:

♥ 3:49 PM

Sunday, January 10, 2010

First week of school, I didn't have the enegy and time to use the computer. Really tired...
So now, I back using the computer.
Hope that second week of school isin't as tiring.
I'm starting to be good, hoping that school will be better than last year.
Am I becoming more nerd?
My pinafore is kinda long, but I'm cool.
I don't really care what you're saying about me.
You know what, you better see yourself before condemning people.
Okay, whatever.

****************************************************************

I want to go back Thailand, someone send me there.

♥ 5:22 PM

Sunday, January 3, 2010

Damn, school's starting tomorrow.
**************************************************************
Idk how to do my blog.
I'm ain't good at blogging.
The one where you can click something to see your older posts?
Yeah, anyone wants to help me?
**************************************************************
I want to wake up to a morning where I know he's right beside me. (:
**************************************************************
You wanna see some photos?

http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=736499143&ref=profile#/album.php?aid=130037&id=736499143

**************************************************************
You know what, I'm in love with Kim Tae Woo!
But too bad, two reasons.
1. He's a star in Korea.
2. He's too old for me? 29(this year).
Saw him on television for the past few days.
On KBS Music Bank.
And whatever music show.

I'm going crazy.....

If only we could be friends and stuff.

♥ 3:46 PM

Friday, January 1, 2010

Boring days. School's starting.
All that would be better with him.
I want to stay in Thailand.
It doesn't matter if he goes to school and I'm alone.
At least I know he'll come back again.
*****************************************************************
Happy New Year, too.
Went for WatchNight Service last night.
Also count down with my church friends.
It was pretty great.
Then at one am, we went back to Yishun Fushion Hub for the "The Edge Awards Night".
Pretty fun too.
At three, my region went to Jln Kayu to eat prata.
Ordered Roti John(not bad).
Four thirty, the church bus came to pick us up to Mt Fabour.
Really dark there, but the hike was still good.
Supposed to sit on some bridge to see the sun rise.
But drunkard people were there(ass holes).
Vomit and passed out people there(wth).
So we went to Labrador Park.
Did not see the sun because we were on the west.
I was so dead then, at six thirty. Already walked like a drunkard.
Went back to the bus, at seven, sat with the same person.
He talked to people while I stoned there.
Stoned since before the walk, I think.
I was really tired, tried to sleep.
But the bus kept jerking and I kept waking up.
We two talked a few words.
He asked if he could sleep on my shoulder, okay(I've agreed).
Finally fell asleep. And, hey wake up.Okay, I woke up and a few more minutes, we reached.
Walked home with sister and some other friends living two blocks away.
Still walking like a drunkard and talked some words.
Home, at last.
Showered and straight to bed.
Woke up at two pm, then slept, up at four.
Ate my lunch.
And this is how it's going to end. :)

♥ 11:40 PM

Monday, December 28, 2009

Crying, crying, crying.
I have to stop crying when I'm alone in my room at night.
What am I crying for?
**********************************************************************

จบไม่ลง (คนมีแผล)jop mai long (kon mee plae)-Black Vanilla

Not to graduate (who has wound).

yang kao jai dee waa tee soot laew mai mee taang daai ter keun maa
I also knew well that in the end there's no way to have you back.
kong mai toht din kong mai groht faa tee sia ter
I probably won't blame heaven or earth for losing you.
dtae tee maa bok tam dtua sap-son yang maa wian wok-won hai pop lae jer
But as for my speech, my confused behavior, still hanging around for you to see,
yang kit teung bpon-bpon pram per yaa son-jai..
still missing you, amixed with delirium, please don't be bothered about them.

gor keu rak tee jing jang lae jing jai man daai pang ta-laai long bpai
For that's a true and sincere love that has been crushed.
kae took-took wan yang mee ter nai jai gor loie yang woon waai yaang nee
Just that everyday I still have you in my heart, and hence I'm still bothersome like this.

yang gep ber toh yang got bpai haa gor jai man yang on ae
I still kept your phone number, still dial them to look for you, for my heart is still weak.

ter kong mai kao jai kon mee plae tee jep lae yang mai haai dee
You probably won't understand, a person with a wound that's painful and still not healed.
mai dtong gang-won gor kae kon ngao tee yang ror ter dtrong nee
No need to worry for it's just a lonely person that's still waiting for you here.
kor ter mai ram-kaan kon kon nee
Beg that you're not annoyed with this person.
man jop mai long sak tee kam waa rak ter..kam waa rak ter ..
It can't end at all for me, the phrase of loving you.. the phrase of loving you..

reu dtong hai ter poot sai naa chan daa raeng-raeng sak wan teung ja kao jai
Or must I let you bawl at me, scold me furiously someday before I would understand?
gor mai roo dtong tam yang ngai man teung haai dee
For I don't know what should I do to recover from this.

Blue

Purple
mai dtong gang-won gor kae kon ngao tee jai mai yang on ae
No need to worry for it's just a lonely person whose heart is still weak.
ter kong mai kao jai kon mee plae tee jep lae yang mai haai dee
You probably won't understand, a person with a wound that's painful and still not healed.
yang mee ber toh yang got bpai haa yang ror tee derm dtrong nee
I still have your phone number, still dial them to look for you, still waiting for you here as before.
kor ter mai ram-kaan kon kon nee
Beg that you're not annoyed with this person.
man jop mai long sak tee kam waa rak ter..kam waa rak....ter
It can't end at all for me, the phrase of loving you.. the phrase of loving you..

♥ 7:47 PM

Friday, December 25, 2009

Christmas, huh?

It does not mean anything if I'm going through it alone, without him.

♥ 12:10 AM

Wednesday, December 23, 2009

What hurts the most - Rascal Flatts

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don't bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I'm not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I'm ok
But that's not what gets me

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was tryin' to do

It's hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I'm doin' It
It's hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I'm alone
Still Harder
Getting up, getting dressed, livin' with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

Not seeing that loving you
That's what I was trying to do

♥ 9:37 PM

Monday, December 21, 2009

I want to go back to where he is.
My heart may not take it for very long.
Can't stop looking at his photo with me.
Would not stop wanting to call him.
But I don not have much money to call.
He also do not have enough money to call.
Someone just shoot me.
I need to feel pain on the outside.
So that the pain inside can subside.
But I can't hurt myself anymore.
I only can keep the pain inside till I meet him again.
Don't blame me if I go crazy.
Ate and vomit out my food, I'm crazy.
But, no, I won't go for those counseling.
I had too many of that.
Hate it so much that I skipped them.
So what if I have problems, huh?
Stupid teacher.
Netball people also don't know what I'm going through.
Anyhow scold me.
What's their problem?
But with God, I can bare all that longer.
One day, I'll fly back there, where he is.

♥ 1:52 AM

Sunday, December 20, 2009

I don't want to wake to another
day knowing I'm without him.

It ain't fun at all.

. Feeling so lonely, but what can I do?

Waiting for next year, so I can be together with him again.

Now, all I can do is to call him and wait for the days to pass.

So that I can meet him once more.

And it will repeat over and over again.

~ What hurts the most the most is being so close.

Watching us leave each other in the airport.

♥ 10:08 PM

Monday, December 14, 2009

My somewhere over the rainbow is almost over!

oh no.

Two weeks in Thailand is almost over! I don't want it. Don't want to go back to Singapore.

Cause when I go back, I can't see my two best guy friends.

Then I can't have one of them to have his hand on mine when riding his motobike.

And his head on my lap, when I'm sitting beside him.

(I'm in his house using his computer while he is in school. He'll only will be back by 4, thai time.)

My the other best friend, I need to leave him too.

He was always there for me.

Almost always together everywhere.

Beside me when I sleep, when I eat, when watching tv (if he's not in school).

Why do I have to leave?

Can't I just stay here, study with them here?

I hate it when I have to leave.

Benz, Jay, I'll miss you till I'm back to see you guys.

And I'll miss my family here too!

♥ 12:00 PM

Sunday, December 6, 2009

Hello, I'm back.
God has shown me alot of things throught this whole month!
I LOVE HIM! AMEN?

BELIEVE
The Edge Conference 2009

ended last night.
I totally love it.
Can't wait for next year's one. (:

And, I'm going back to Thailand tomorrow!
Yay!

I've bought Planetshakers CDs in the conference.
They rock with the strength of GOD!

♥ 12:43 AM

Thursday, November 5, 2009

I have to go for a period of time.

It seems like it'll be long.

It's just a month,
two weeks and a few days.

How could the days be?

But that one month, two weeks

and few days

is for You, Lord.

With Him, I can resist all temptations.

Goodbye.

♥ 1:00 PM

Tuesday, November 3, 2009

I close my eyes, I still see him.

Why?
In my dreams too.
Do I really like him?

Or do I love him more than a friend?

I can't believe he knows it.

How I wish that I could go back to
the time where I told him.

And control my feelings for him.

If only He doesn't know.

I think we would be friends now.

Why didn't I control myself?

~ Baby, I should have not tell you
I love you so.
I'm sorry for what I did.
Now that you now my feelings for
you, tell me if I should stop
or go on loving you in the way
that will hurt me more.

♥

♥ 8:37 PM

Wednesday, October 28, 2009

Music for you.

My Superstar-GolfMike

♥ 6:30 PM

Monday, October 26, 2009

Did he ask me to leave him alone?
             It made me more hurt.
   More of keeping emot
   -ions to myself.

You hate me so much, huh?
But I'm still so deeply in love with you.

♥ 10:23 PM

Sunday, October 18, 2009

There's nothing much between the last time I've blog and now. Celebrated my sister's birthday and mine. Hers was on 10th October and mine was on 14th October. Now that I'm thirdteen, I feel older and alittle closer for the end of my secondary school life. This years one wasn't really speacial. Ate alot of cake. Not presents recieved. But there will be one coming, I think.One of my friend told me that. But whatever.
Now the thing is that I'm getting closer to mt trip back home! To Thailand! Can't wait. And I don't feel like waiting. I have no choice but to wait. Excited to meet my family! I'll be happy there.

I have a new name! Pinchanok Gamboom Athigit Pringprom. I love it! Going to make a name tag. But I'll put as Pinchanok Gamboom AP. But I won't make it now. School is ending and it takes four weeks to come to me. Oh yeah, I made a name tag that is almost the same. Just that don't have Athigit Pringprom. Now, I really sound like a Thai. Not like Pinchanok Ling. Very mixed, like salads. Anyways, I'm going to sound like a Thai!
Tomorrow, I'm going Sentosa! I'm going there to sun tan. Tomorrow no school, no Netball. But still have to do my self-training. I think I'll stop here.

♥ 10:02 PM

Saturday, October 10, 2009

From today, I shall stop saying "Hello lips" and "Bye lips". I think it's quite stupid for me. You know that it's stupid. I don't want to be stupid, neither that clever, I just want to be a normal person who has very close friends, on earth, that sticks together. Which I don't have, now I think that people on earth are not like God who is always there for me. Now, I think I only have God as my true friend. It's not that I don't want to have friends. It's just that people do not want to be my true friends. Seems like I don't have a choice about this. I'm really tired about friends that push me around and not really bother of how I feel inside. I think they are just acting of being my friend. It's not that I want to say about them. Just that life has been very bad for me. Teachers, they are fools, tiredness has pulled me down. Sometimes I just feel like committing suicide. But I know if I die, I'll go to hell. And if I don't die, I'll be suffering. Feel like slashing again, but people around me will get hurt. I want to feel the pain on my skin rather than on my heart. Sometimes when I think what people will get/feel if I do this and that, but instead, I get hurt. Some of them will scold me and tell me to go away. Don't they know we're all humans and how I feel? I don't know what to do. All I can think of doing now is go to God and talk to Him.

~ Sometimes I act like I'm okay, but I'm not. I don't want to tell people. But now, I think I have to. I don't want any counseling from school and I have been forced to go. I just want to keep them to myself and become crazy. Which I think am now crazy. I want to cry, but no, I will hold it inside. I don't want to show my feelings to anyone and everyone.

♥ 9:15 AM